Falling Again II (Sorry for the mix-up)

I'm not sure if you guys remember the dance or kiss entry. If you do, then i have an update to make. Right now, I'd go for the KISS. I dunno why i changed my mind. Maybe I just don't feel "the DANCE" anymore. I mean, he's with someone else already. He's changed too...I dunno. When we see each other in school, I just don't feel the magic anymore. No more sparks or awkward moments. All the butterflies have gone to somewhere else too. I know I miss him. He was my first love after all. But it's all too complicated. We've talked about it in the past and it hurt so much. But I got to accept it someway, somehow.

But now, I'm starting to fall for "the KISS" once again, meaning this is not the first time. I don't know why he keeps popping into my head every single moment of my life. I always feel this glow of warmth just thinking of him. We weren't close at all when we were classmates in high school. He was always with the "cool" guys while i was with the brainy ones. It was only in college when we became close. After all these years being single and lonely, he came into my life and made me feel special. Some may say that he does that to everybody, but I don't care. He's so nice, and caring, and thoughtful and loving to me. I thought we had something going on, so I kept up with him...until one day, he slowly drifted away. We never watched a movie together since then. He never texted, asking where I was or if I was playing dota. And it hurt me so much because like I said, I thought we had something going on. But I was wrong. I'm so stupid to think that it was possible for us to be together. I felt so sad and depressed after we talked about our present relationship. Why only now when I had already fallen in love with him? But then, I realized that it was also my fault. He had already warned me back then not to give in to my feelings. But I guess, my feelings got the most out of me, and so I continued on. But after I felt that he was slowly drifting away, I had nothing to do but accept the fact that some things will never be. And so I myself started to avoid him. I did't want my feelings for him to come back ever again because my agony would only get worse. I really loved him, and I think severing our connection as friends was the best thing to do. But once again, I was wrong. I only felt worse not being with him. I couldn't stand not hearing is voice or not getting a text message from him. But after a while, my feelings for him suddenly just vanished.

But now, I don't know what came to me. I'm falling for him once again. I never wanted him to be my classmate, but he was the one who insisted, and so i gave in. And a while ago, even just the simplest of gestures, and having the chance to be with him once again awakened the feelings that I was able to supress back then...

I really love him. There is nothing for me but to love him. In fact, I love him even more than ever...

Happy Feet

Two days ago, us Blow friends (Jojo, Kalvin, Eds, Migui, Tim, Nyko, AJ) got together once again after a very stressfull and tiring week. Here's a list of what we did that night.

1. We ate in this cheapay food stall somewhere in the less sosyal part of eastwood. Eds and I shared one order of chicksilog kasi may two chicken parts na and two rice in one meal for only P65.

2. We watched this dance competition in eastwood, with La Salle and Ateneo competing to claim a cash prize (I think) and a trophy. Ateneo won. :) But before that, there was also a fashion show with some atenistas in it. Some were from La Salle and other schools. (I think (>.<)) AT, ang daming chippy! (H*B*!!!)

3. I was separated from the rest of the beckys because I saw Jaron, Marlon, Jery, Ana so I decided to go with them. Konting bonding, then Ean arrived with si gurl. Tapos waley so I left. While I was looking for the other beckys, someone texted me. I thought it was one of them beckys but instead, it was from Ms. Siega, my high school Physics teacher. She said, "Erwin, I saw you just now. Sino kasama mo?" I then replied, "Gurl, asan ka gurl.Ü" She replied, "Hindi ako si gurl. Ako si Ms. Siega.Ü" Hahahaha. Na-waley ako so I replied in a more repectful manner. Tapos ayun, she said na lang that I keep quiet and not tell anyone that she was there...But it was already too late.

4. We watched Happy Fee-at. Ang cute ng movie! The songs were well sung and I especially loved the scene when the male emperor penguins were singing out throughout the evening blizzard. The best talaga! Ang ganda pa ng effects! But most of all, ang Über cute ni Mumble!!!

5. We ended at around 1 am. Tim went somewhere else at never na namin siya nakita. We ate in KFC and decided to go home after the evening snack. By that time, we realized that waley na kaming anda pabalik sa Katip. Honestly, waley na talaga ako. Just not sure about the others so we decided to walk na lang for a short while palabas ng eastwood just in case someone offers to ride a cab to Katipunan when we reach the highway. BUT NO, everyone remained strong hanggang sa NILAKAD NA NAMIN ANG BUONG WAY PABALIK SA KATIPUNAN. As in dumaan na kami sa ilalim ng tulay hanggang sa umabot na kami sa flyover hanngang sa katipunan. At hindi siya nakakapagod, I'm telling you. Hahaha. In fact, it's a nice way of bonding with your friends. So ayun, we walked for one hour, from 1 am to 2 am hanggang sa nakarating na rin kami at last sa Katips. We went straight to Him5 coz Nigel and John were waiting for us there. We then went up to Drews to celebrate this seemingly impossible feat of walking from Eastwood to Katipunan. Ganda!!! Happy talaga ang feet namin sa paglalakad!

Halo-halo

☼ Putragis yan oh. Nanalo na naman ang unggoy. Pero okay lang. Wala na akong pakialam. At least, mayaman na siya at matutulungan na niya ang Pilipinas someway, somehow. Sana naman, bigyan niya ako ng kahit konting pera. Pinagdasal ko naman na manalo siya eh.

☼ Putragis yan oh. Bagsak na naman ako sa chem. SW lang pero feeling ko, waley na na naman ako. Putragis naman kasi yung dala kong calculator. Magpaka-scientific lang, hindi pa magawa. Hahaha. At, wala pa akong friendships. Kanino ako mangongopya?! Magpapaka-mimi na lang ba ako hanggang matapos ang sem? Isang malaking waley!

☼ Spanish was fun. I studied over the weekend so medyo magaling ako kanina. Eco was fun too. Sobrang dali talaga magbigay ng quiz si Simon-King. Sana ma-A ko ang eco102 this sem. At, nagulat na lang ako kasi biglang may tumatawag sa cellphone ko. Pagkatingin ko, si Nigel. Si Nigel tumatawag sa akin?! Anyway, dota raw.

☼ Dota was fun too. Medyo nag-uusap na kami ni CJ.Ü At, akala ko waley Venomancer ko. But NO. 4th place pa ako. ehehe. Thanks to CJ for coming to the rescue.

☼ Hindi ko talaga ma-explain ang mga becky nowadays. Nung weekend lang, parang lahat na ata na nakasama ay gusto makahada. Tapos kanina sa school, shigela na naman mga becky. Halos lahat, naghahanap ng pwedeng hadain. Hahaha. Casual na eh. Tila may Hada Season ang mga becky! Kahit mga panaginip ko kagabi at nung isang gabi, puro hada. Hada na lang ng hada. Hahaha.

Chemically Disappointed

First quiz in Chem7 today, and I was hoping that I would get a high score. But no! Instead of doing good in the test, I failed it. Damn it, shit! It's only the start of the semester, and I'm already failing one of my subjects. Remember, one F and waley! If only i had a chem book, I would've passed and perfected the exam. If only I knew anyone from my chem block, I would've borrowed a book to review for just a short while. But it's hard, being the person that I am. Everything's so new and I don't even have one anyone to help me with adjusting to my new course. I'm thankful that I got block L2 for my zoo block coz. At least, I know Nigel. His blockmates also seem nice so I think there wouldn't be any problems with adjusting. But what I really need are friends from my chem block. Chem's a difficult subject, and there's a big possibility that I would get kicked out of Bio if i fail it. And because of this fact, I really need to meet new people as soon as possible. But how can I do that if I'm the one with the problem? I just hope somebody from my chem block would talk to me or sit beside me. Or kung waley talaga, I hope that I would find the courage to approach other people...before it's too late.

1st Day

First day of the second sem as a bio student turned out to be quite okay.
> Th121 with Ms. Yecla as my teacher? So far, so good. A few familiar faces pero at least, they're still my batchmates. Bonded with Chino Copuyoc (haha!) the whole period. We wanted sana to transfer to a later class of the same teacher pero ang bitchy ng secretary ng theo dept. at hindi kami pinayagan. Kaya we plan to talk to Ms. Yecla personally for internal arrangements.
> Chem7 was fun, except that I didn't know anyone from my block becoz puro bio freshies. I sat at the back with no one beside me...but still, I enjoyed the first meeting coz my classmates kept on joking about each other. AND, ang daming chippy like Mike Mendoza and this cute chinito guy infront of me. The teacher seemed nice too so I think there wouldn't be any problems regarding the class.
> Spanish class was really really fun. Pero it seemed scary at first because the moment my teacher (Heide Aquino) entered the room, she spoke in Spanish kaagad, at wala akong alam sa mga pinagsasabi niya. But then, towards the end, it turned out that she was just preparing us OR giving us an idea of what to expect about the class. Personality-wise, she's a nice teacher. So I hope I get a high grade for Spanish class. There were also a few familiar faces so I think I could work with that.
> I got Simon-King for my Ec102 class. Mukha naman siyang mabait at magaling like what people say pero may pagka-weirda. My classmates from my nat. sci zoo class were also there so at least, may kakilala ako. AT, may chippy rin pero hindi ko na sasabihin kung sino. Like Spanish, I also hope to get a high grade in this class kasi sabi ng iba, A-able naman. I just have to work hard for it..

a natural glow

You could say that having a complexion which can be compared to that of a dead person, plus very dark eye bags and a skinny build is sufficient enough for me to join a halloween party without the costume, make-up and other paraphernalia. However, instead of "dressing up" for this event only once every year, I think I'm going overboard by having this same old funny look every damn single day. A couple of months ago, my tita from the states came here to visit us for just a short while. And shempre, she brought with her a lot of pasalubong for us natives. Every time, she would give out jerseys (for my brothers), pokemon merchandise (you know who), tees, bags, chocolates, golf merchandise for my dad and a lot of perfumes and other beauty products for my mom. Then, from the corner of my eye, I saw this product from my mom's mound of goodies, which gave me a sparkle of hope for this unrelenting dilemma of mine. It's a moisturizer from Jergens, the new Natural Glow FACE Daily Moisturizer, which promises to "create a healthy, summer glow all year long just by moisturizing." Moreover, it contains essential moisturizers and a subtle skin darkening complex which helps you reach you maximum intensity of color after about one week of daily use. It was only last week when I decided to use the product and today is the sixth day since I first applied the moisturizer. Last night, I came from Tantan's celebration of his birthday last November 9 and finally, may nakapansin na rin sa aking pagbabago. I was filled with happiness when Martin Caste said that my face had started to tan and it radiated a beautiful and subtle glow. At last, I found a partial solution to my problem and I am very thankful to my tita, AND my mom for giving me some of her beauty products.

it's bio time

oh shit. classes on monday, and i'm not even sure if i'm ready for what bs bio has to offer. one F, and waley! i'm not even in good terms with chem! 4-hour lab class for zoo? i can't even stand 2 hours of regular zoo lab infront of a microscope. i should bring Biogesic every Thursday if ever my migraine decides to attack. and i don't even know anyone from the lower batch! paano ako kokopya?! at least, there's inspiration lurking around. haaay, i can do this.